Posted by denise528 on January 15, 2003, at 13:13:48
I've just been to see my psychiatrist, I've been taking Lamictal since June and told him that it wastn't doing anything at all. The thing is because I'm not having an adverse reaction to it he wants me to keep taking it. I can't understand it, that's like giving me smarties and telling me to stay on them because there are no side effects!
Now he wants to add in Tegretal (another mood stabiliser would you believe), I've told him that my mood doestn't need stablising it needs lifting.
He won't prescribe MAIOs because he says they are second line treatment, I'm not even sure they would work anyway, nothing else seems to (apart from Zyprexa) but I thought maybe I could give it a try (why not).
I think my psychiatrist seems to think that because I'm still going to work, can still read the paper and watch T.V everything is hunky dory. The fact that I'm still suicidal most of the time (sometimes more so than others), don't want to talk to anyone, don't want sex, don't look forward to or plan anything and am a complete misery doestn't seem to matter to him.
I've just had a review at work and some of the feedback from my peers really upset me (although it's true).
It said "Denise is very very quiet and isolated from the team despite attempts to involve her more in the group and contact can often be negligible for days on end". God I really wish I didn't exist.
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