Posted by Kar on January 14, 2003, at 0:12:38
In reply to Feel so awful I can't stand it anymore, posted by Peter on January 13, 2003, at 23:17:29
Hey Peter. i can relate to that trapped feeling. Even when i'm feeling better for a spell i still feel that way. but unfortunately I can't trade this body in either. I've been working at this for years and had begun to feel at the end of my rope. Combo after combo, and sick of hearing from everyone else that something will work.
In a way it's good that you feel fed up...frustrated, disgusted...because I see thems as fighting words. I didn't hear you say, "it's over...that's it...there's no more help". i think we've all been there, probably many times...the lowest of the lows...knowing it will get better but worrying about the next one. "How long will this 'good' last?" "How can i change it?", "Why the hell won't something work like it seems to with everyone else?".
Is your doc leery about adding something as you titrate the Lamictal? It does seem logical that if you were this crappy and taking the Lamictal slowly, that adding something else just might lighten this mood up a little. My doc keeps stressing that it's not each drug and how it works alone, but the combo and how they work together. if you're feeling that bad he should treat this more aggressively. No need to wait any longer. Any talk of MAOI's?
I'm not working either and it sucks. As I said, even when I feel good I'm only cautiously optimistic because this is such a pattern that i don't trust that it will last.
Had you been working before? It may be a bad stretch for you now but you will get it back! I vote for leaving this doc. He sounds unsure and off target. i don't know what to tell you about which drug next. I'm sure someone will respond to that..There is an interesting algorithm site where you can plug in what drugs you've tried and concomitant symptoms and it gives the next recommended line of treatment. I think docs probably use it too. It might help you just to get some idea of where to go next. i found it really helpful although my doc is very on top of things. It's http://www.mhc.com/Algorithms/Depression/index.htHaven't heard of Kosis but that means nothing. Do you live in the tri state area? I'm in CT and have an awesome doc out of Yale. I also here that Donald Klein is superb. Don't know it he takes patients anymore but i think he's at Columbia. Ivan Goldberg's in the City too.
I am so sorry that you're feeling the way that you are. I think you should start fresh. Somneone new will have a fresh outlook and more ideas, I'm sure. this dude you have should not be having you suffer so much, no matter whether you are waiting for something to "kick in". We've all been there. Hang in.
"Patence is bitter but its fruit is sweet"
-Rousseubest, Karen
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