Posted by cygnusx1 on January 8, 2003, at 23:56:51
I have taken 1 mg of Xanax a day for 6 years. .5 in the morning and .5 at night. I also take 50mgs of Luvox at night. I have turned into an emotionless zombie. I have no motivation to do anything. I still have paranoid thought and obsessive thinking. I have severe OCD and panic disorder as well as GAD and angoraphobia (sp?)
I so much want to be off the sedating meds like Xanax. I believe that my life would be so much better off the Xanax. I tried to decrease my dosage by .12 mgs a day of Xanax and felt HORRIBLE the next day. Like death.
I tried taking the same level of Klonopin and felt even worse than on Xanax. Very jittery and I couldn't talk properly. Like I wanted to say 5 words at once.
I don't know to do. Could it be I'm not taking enough medication? I hope that isn't the case. I feel like I'm missing out on life being on medication. I don't leave the house or shower regularly, I treat me girlfriend like crap, I avoid family and friends. All because whenever someone asks me to go out or wants to hang out I feel like they are threathening my space. So I avoid them. I am only 25 and fear the rest of life will be like this.
I did take large amounts of LSD when I was 13 and 14 and I fear they may have made an imprint on my life that can never be changed.
Does it sound like I'm not taking enough medication? I don't even think 50mgs of Luvox is a therapetic level.
I'm at a loss. Please add advice if you have any.
Thank you in advance
poster:cygnusx1
thread:135035
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