Posted by michael73 on January 3, 2003, at 14:34:55
In reply to treating a delusion, posted by Dave1 on December 26, 2002, at 20:26:53
Hi Dave, I've experienced OCD/GAD/depression/brain fog/social anxiety/severe paruresis (bashful bladder syndrome) and have wondered if I'm bipolar. I think OCD is at the core of it all though. There's some neat observations in the above posts like the not being able to "really" be sure of something and procrastinating until the "right" time to start something. I don't think you're need to touch something is silly at all, as I can relate to it, though I don't generally have such specific reasons to do something like that. It's usually just a vague need to satisfy "something", though on a more subconsious level I may have reasons similar to yours. I am prone to feelings of guilt - I think that just goes hand in hand with OCD; as it is kind of a "thinking disease". In fact I have some trouble posting at this sight because I'm afraid I'm going to leave out a piece of information that may help someone. My posting may even be equivalent to your touching in that I'm afraid of what God would think of me if I don't try to help people by sharing my experiences. I've been almost entirely medication free for the last two years but when things came to a head 7 years ago, i.e. nervous breakdown, clomipramine (anafranil) had an amazing capacity to wash away obsessions. I felt "sure" about things and could start things at any time without waiting for the "perfect" time. I had a feeling of perspective I hadn't had before. I had uncomfortable side effects though and couldn't stand even 50mg /day. (I took only 50 mg every 36 hrs). Watch out for difficulty urinating. If I took too much I think it'd completely plug me. I was also uncomforatable with the "uptightness". I took it for 5 years. After two years of doing well medication free (probably by keeping my life stable) I hit a bump and took it for just a couple of days so I could put things in perspective. It worked. Good Luck, Michael73
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