Posted by ricardo on December 26, 2002, at 3:07:41
In reply to Re: Marijuana triggered my schizophrenia, posted by john7219 on December 25, 2002, at 23:59:51
Hi
Even though I think I've had depression since I was eight years old, I feel quite relieved that I've never had suicidal impulses. My depression has always been more closely associated with a desire to *live* as opposed to dying. I had never tried marijuana until some three years ago. I had a boyfriend who used it daily, so I decided that I needed to know what it felt like. It was kind of funny because I had to learn how to smoke cigarrettes first (at the age of 34!) so I could try pot. Well, I did smoke it four or five times within a week or so, since I'd been told it wouldn't "kick in" the very first time I tried. I have to say that the last time I tried it was maybe THE only time I thought about killing myself! I remember feeling like there was no hope in life. Everything felt really gloomy and helpless. That was when I made the decision of staying as far from it as I could. I do have friends who believe it does help them with anxiety and even depression. A co-worker of mine, however, has told me how she believes she doesn't progress much in the job because of her using pot on a daily basis. I can tell you how incredibly qualified she is (we're both teachers at the same school), but she doesn't have any confidence in her own abilities. She's not the only person like this that I've met! I even heard about a certain syndrome that is associated with marijuana use that is supposed to cause this lethargic and unenthusiastic attitude towards life. Anyway, that's my personal experience with marijuana.
Good luck!
Ricardo
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