Posted by Ritch on December 18, 2002, at 13:33:41
In reply to Re: BP II peeps--Tegretol questions... » Ritch, posted by Krysti on December 18, 2002, at 12:58:48
> Hi Ritch,
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> Thanks for the reply. I'm on 900mg of Trileptal. I haven't experienced any paranoia and I've been pretty stable. Going through a stressful time right now because I need to make a decision about something though (a pretty minor decision when you put it in context with the grand scheme of life, but seems major to me at this time if you know what I mean). Anyway, I think I'm doing pretty well so far, as far as remaining stable, but of course, since it hasn't been that long since I've been diagnosed - still questioning whether my moods/emotions/reactions are where they should be. I guess it doesn't even matter in the long run because I need to base the decision on how I'm feeling now anyway, not on if I am reacting how I should be. I tend to try to base my decisions on what my head tells me is right or wrong and it drives me nuts. I guess I need to just go with how I feel.
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> Sorry for the rambling...as you can see it's stressing me out : )
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> By the way, I also became manic and delusional from an AD - Paxil (before I was diagnosed). I went in and out of being delusional for about 3 weeks - luckily it wasn't serious enough to where I needed hospitalization though. Scary thing what the wrong meds can do to you when you are bipolar.
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> Depakote made me very sleepy as well, and then REALLY blah. Gabitril made me depressed and have crying spells. Lexapro on top of the Gabitril made me edgy and like the two meds were fighting each other - too up and down at the same time (I think that would be a mixed state).
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> Trileptal has been the best so far. The next two weeks will probably be a true test in just how good it's working. If I was trying to make this decision med free, I would have been wacko already : )
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> KrystiKrysti, I have a lot of problems at times second-guessing my emotional reactions to things (is it for real or is it bipolar, am I overreacting?, etc.). I hate having to rely on everybody ELSE to confirm (or disconfirm) my feelings about everything. Actually, the Trileptal may not be causing the paranoia after all. I talked to some coworkers and they are having the same suspicions that I am! Hey, I thought I was starting to lose it or something, but everybody else is starting to lose it too and are experiencing similar symptoms. So wheeeeww, that's a relief! I am more and more getting this feeling that I am going to have to bump the Depakote back up to 250mg and do WHATEVER it takes to stay awake all day. If I have to dig out the Wellbutrin again, I guess I will just have to. At least this crap will fade away after about three or four weeks, thank God.
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