Posted by Mr Cushing on December 3, 2002, at 21:38:51
First, Dr. Bob, Tabitha, Medlife, please let this stay up for at least a few days before jumping it over to the Faith board. Most of the people that have been supporting me check this board first. It would mean a lot to me...Hi... There's a lot of people on this board that have been helping support me through this period of my life, and well, now I really need some help. About a month ago I received an email from a very old and dear friend of mine. She has been living on the other side of the country for the past year or so, so I haven't seen her in a while. In her email, she told me that she would be coming home for Christmas and that she would probably see me about the week before the 25th. But first, she was going on a sailing trip from BC to Mexico to Costa Rica. This girl loved exploring, so this was completely normal of her. Anyways, a friend of mine sent me this article today...
http://www.canada.com/vancouver/story.asp?id=F699A0DC-E08B-495C-BF32-AB4445AB19D2
Her boat has been missing now for 7 days... I honestly don't know what to do or think or anything right now... I know I would be dead right now if she hadn't helped me through the worst of my depression after my Moms had died. She sat up with me while I cried my eyes out for months on end and she only left after she knew that I was strong enough to pull myself through it. In short, I pretty much owe my life to her.
If any of you are even the slightest bit religious, can you please incorporate her into your prayers? I'm not sure how I'm going to take losing somebody as good-hearted as her this way.
Right now I'm on a relatively high dose of Klonopin so that I can keep myself kind of calmed down. I haven't stopped crying though since about 5PM today and it's 10PM now. I'm also going to see my MD tomorrow as I already have an app't with him and I'm going to request that he give me a stronger AD for the time being. I'm not sure what I can take though, any SSRIs send my moods going like a bouncing ball. Any ideas here would be greatly appreciated.
I don't feel as though I'm going to do anything stupid but I was already cycling into a depression before I got this news. Now I'm in a full-tilt depression... I'm not about to be hospitalized at the moment neither. I've got people here watching over me to make sure I'm alright. I've got 3 Doctor's app'ts scheduled between tommorrow and Monday. I also need to be free in case something does happen and I need to attend a wake/funeral. I know that's jumping the gun, but I really don't know what to think. Just trying to stay calm and let the time pass, but the last 5 hours have seemed like a few weeks...
poster:Mr Cushing
thread:130458
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20021203/msgs/130458.html