Posted by rayww on November 16, 2002, at 11:06:01
In reply to EMPower Plus-Has anyone tried?, posted by Maisy on November 16, 2002, at 8:30:33
I have been taking EMPower for 2.5 months. I was unmedicated at the time, so I didn't have to wean off anything. From a clear-headed perspective this is what I have found:
I keep thinking I am going to go over the edge but I don't; rather I pass through situations that used to make me ill.
I still enjoy my creativity, but don't rely on how I'm going to feel a particular day to make my daily plans.
I enjoy my swinging, but I don't swing too high, out, down, or upside out. I seem to be more in control of the swing.The down side to EMPower: I am struggling to form new habits and work patterns that fill the void and don't just move with the mood.
I'm not lazy by nature, but I am accustomed to living in survival mode. Life feels really good right now. Not euphoric. In euphoria I feel like everything's all better finally, and like I've solved all my problems, never to return to them again. I work around the clock to catch up on what didn't get done before, and then I either crash from exhaustion, or else the cycle repeats itself.
I have been waiting for the high to hit so I can tackle some major cleaning projects, but it's not gonna happen. For me that is considered a down side, but it is also up in that I feel capable of facing projects without going over the edge.
I have faced a couple of them already. One was my car port. I had my cleaning helper pull everything out of our shed and pile it on the car port. Then I waited for the mood to strike so I could organize and clean it. It never did hit, so one day (about a month later) I consciously went outside and faced it box by box, and it didn't even hurt. It felt good. I don't suppose anyone identifies with me on this.
I am going to stay on EMPower for another month, and then go off it for a time to see if I fall back to the old way. I don't know how else to evaluate its claim to fame.
AND---I don't know what I am. my pdoc, or I should say, gpdoc said bipolar, but as I read and study here, I'm not so sure.
Thank-you to everyone who posts here and recommends books and other sites. It has been the most amazing discovery.
poster:rayww
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