Posted by Elysium9 on November 15, 2002, at 12:58:16
The information that I have received, has led me to beleive that I may indeed be; bipolar1, 2, or 3?, maybe a rapid-cycler?. As I was apprehensive, ambivilant to start taking antidepressant's, I am equally apprehensive, ambivilant to start with a new menagerie of medication's, ie: antipsychotic's, mood stabilizer's, ect.
A friend of mine wrote me yesterday, and said, "I think it's time for you to stop your self-diagnosis. Go see a doctor."
Perhaps he is right. Perhaps I am procrastinating.
Perhaps not. I am sure at this time, when I walk into the doctors office, slap down on his desk, the research, the information that I have collected, on the effect's that SSRI's alone have on the bipolar person. The effect's that every SSRI that has been prescribed to myself; Paxil, Zoloft, Celexa, Wellbutrin, and the anti-anxiety medication, Buspar. He will agree, and say, hey, perhaps you are bipolar. Start me on a new regimen of medication.
This terrorfies me. I am an artist. What I do for a living, when I'm able to work. It is what I am best at. The purpose of my being. The purpose of my being here on the planet.
Will these medication's have an effect on my creative imagination? When euphoria kicks-in, this is when I am at my most creative, and productive. When I loose myself, go wild, create.
I know that many painter's have been mentally-ill, Van Gogh, Pollack, many more. I have also read, heard theory's, that there is a connection between sanity, and creativity.
Will these other medication's, lithium, Zyprexa, Depekote, ect., make me fall off of my magic carpet-ride?
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