Posted by tai on October 15, 2002, at 11:46:46
In reply to Re: Drunk on Zoloft?, posted by wcfrench on October 14, 2002, at 18:42:54
hey charlie,
zoloft seems to be my one area of expertise, so I think I can probably kind of "walk alongside" you as you go through the different stages. Now obviously, our paths won't be completely similar, but right now it sure sounds like you are in a familiar spot.
Thats good that you are starting to slightly feel the effects of the zoloft so quickly. I think that may be due to the fact that you were already on the remeron. It took me months before I felt truly secure and confident. And every small step forward was followed by a big leap back. So hopefully you are already ahead of this, and in a position to simply start reaping the benefits. Well not really that easy, but the eventual outcome is something to really look forward to. so, as hard as it may be you have to have patience, and give yourself 2-3 months on this, so you can really measure how well its working for you. I know that seems like a hell of a long experimentation period, but what you are already saying sounds so familiar, so feel confident that zoloft will work out for you.
When I first started taking zoloft I was in a bad, bad state; massive anxiety attacks, severe deppression...so I didnt start feeling a little better for at least 3-4 weeks or so. And I remember I had worked my way into a functioning state, and even got the nerve up to get a job. My sleep was still all out of wac, but I toughed through those shitty mornings at work, because it was all I could do. And then there would be these random days where I would feel good, I mean really good, where the same shit on the radio sounded good, and the same day to day people that I could barely look in the eye, were now having interesting conversations with me. Instead of the outside world being a sponge, soaking the life out of me, I was the sponge, soaking up life from the world. But like I said, those highs were also followed by regression. The zoloft doesnt work as a steady ascent upwards, but kind of like steps, where you will move up a little, and then kind of flatten out, and then back up a little, and then flatten out. I would also constantly be analyzing how I felt, like a constant dialogue within me. And even though some things were feeling better, I could always think myself back into a depressed state, like wait a second, nothing has changed, I should still be depressed, so I guess I am.
Eventually, feeling good about yourself and life, will become a regular state of mind. And the doubts will slowly fade from your mind, although I don't think they will ever completely go away, you are always going to think about where you have been. It used to scare me at night, I was so afraid to wake up and be back in that place again.
But listen, keep me updated on your progress. I think things can work out really well for you. Maybe I am just being overly optimistic...I should take some of your optimism and use it on myself.
good luck.
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