Posted by lawrence s. on October 14, 2002, at 21:34:49
I have lost both of my parents: My Mom last july died in my arms. My friend at work passed away last spring.
I work next to Apostolics, Baptists, Bornagains. Each one claims that the other sector of religion is going to hell. Now there is all the pedophiles in the Catholic church. And I was raised Catholic. I think about death almost continuosly it seems. It is about as big of a mystery to me as life is. It scares me so bad. I feel doomed. I start to freak out. I feel half alive and sometimes I don't know if I am alive. Ocassionally I have delulusions that I am dead. This seems to happen when things get real bad and I'm lonely like working in a factory for fourteen hours and then driving home in the the dark one hour each way. Nothing seems real. I feel like I'm doing the same thing over and over like being caught in a time warp.Please don't tell me to go away from the people at work. I already have and the damage is done.
What med. or med combo's should I be on that could help? I have tried many and I am on quite a few already. I tried Risperdal for ruminating thoughts but cound't stand the zombie effect. Also I am a pilot. For me I can barely drive on the stuff and everyone at work could tell I was taking something. right now I'm on Lamictal, Ritalin Lexapro, Klonopin. I'm going insane. please help.
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