Posted by tai on October 14, 2002, at 17:18:37
In reply to Re: my experience; from zoloft to prozac and then some » tai, posted by wcfrench on October 14, 2002, at 14:02:58
charlie-
hey, I think I just dropped you a message earlier about being "drunk on zoloft"...was that you?
Anyways, I really appreciate that message. I especially like your quote at the end. I have only been checking this website for a few days, but already I know that there are so many people that are not well, and so many people who have been in that hole. I want to tell everyone to hang on and that things will get better, but when its yourself you tend not to believe those words.
Im definately feeling better than I did when I posted that message. It just seems that I have to walk all the way to the edge and kind of dangle over before I get a little reprive. This is how its been going, there is a little shaft of light and then before I know it I am heading towards that same cliff. Let me tell you, I don't want to die, but I also don't want to live like this. If I cant enjoy my friends, my family, people I know love me...thats not living. When the music you love no longer moves you, and the hobbies you enjoy no longer interest you...I refuse to be a spectator in life, I want to be an active participant.
But like I said, I seem to have bought myself some time, because here I am for the 2nd day in a row feeling not so bad...still cant sleep worth a dam, but...The wellbutrin was making me sick, but the effexor xr seems to have a positive effect, or the prozac is finally working, I don't know. The sad part is, this whole experimentation with drugs was so I could try and find one or a combination that would not effect my sex drive. But I have a feeling its not going to be at its peak anyway.
I think the toughest part is the waiting, having the patience to let the meds have some time to work. I just get so impatient because I feel like I am just wasting away. Like my whole life is on hold.
You have probably heard this all before and I dont want to bring my positive vibes down for the day, so I am gonna cut myself off here, otherwise theres gonna be another term paper length message. But listen, I am awful hard on myself, I know, but always willing to listen to others, so if you ever want to talk or whatever, just put up a post.
Thanks again for your support.
poster:tai
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