Posted by Ritch on October 11, 2002, at 23:12:28
In reply to Re: verapamil, posted by susan C on October 9, 2002, at 11:14:52
....So far, I feel, just even. I have felt emotionless (depakote and perhaps ambien, read sedated) This is new, so perhaps balanced is a good word. It is hard to explain. The other day, I found myself humming along with the music, moving around...I expanded a recipe, with out even thinking, then, imagine! I was cooking! and I didnt get too agitated...I am still very suspicious.
this has got to go for several months..for me to say, yes, it isnt coincidence, it is the medication. The ULTIMATE test would then be to STOP it and see what happens, but I havent had the strength or courage to do that with depakote, I doubt I would be able to do it with verapamil. So, it would be nice to have a 'real' life back, instead of this roller coaster of ups and downs. I like the euphoria of the ups, but they tend to be very unrealistic ideas and are followed by devastating lows. Gosh, something just, normal would be nice. Normal, where I get an idea to do something, follow through on it, enjoy it and move on to the next thing.....
Susan, if you are going to try the verapamil over the course of weeks, it would be nice to hear about updates (I remember your Keppra journal). The reason I ask is my pdoc mentioned it in the last visit (first time ever). I wonder if there is a very recently published study with verapamil that noone here has read-from reading your post it seems like it has enhanced your cognitive functioning somehow.
Mitch
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