Posted by Chloe on September 9, 2002, at 18:46:44
In reply to Re:ECT cyber, posted by jaby on August 14, 2002, at 15:04:54
Hi Everyone,
I have had 8 unilateral ECT treatments and I don't really feel that much better. It's nice to be off the antiepileptic drugs, depakote, neurontin, etc, but I am finding I am still quite suicidal...Maybe even more, since I am discouraged that this is not helping dramatically. I still live by myself with no family near by, and few friends in the area. I can't drive or work because I am undergoing ECT. So I don't know, things just seem kinda dismal. I am trying to have a positive and constructive attitude. I just don't understand why I can't shake this mood disorder and get on with my life.The Edoc wants to switch from unilateral to bilateral. I told him I wanted to think about it...I am afraid that I won't be able to live alone if I have bilateral. And I had a woman from an agency stay with me (on my mother's insistance) the night after my first treatment. She stayed awake downstairs while I slept upstairs. And later the next day, I found that 3/4th of my bottle of valium was gone! I couldn't believe it. Of course I don't know for sure that she took it. But no one else was in the house...I was so stupid to leave my meds downstairs. I just couldn't imagine that someone would steal them. Live and learn.
I am so scared that I am not feeling alot better. It must be hard on the body to go to sleep and have a seizure like that. I have had so many infiltrated IV's, huge bruises, sore muscles and headaches from the treatments. I want this to help me so much. How many treatments is a fair trial? Is it reasonable to switch to bilateral now? I wonder if the memory impairment will be dramatically more?
Does anyone have any thoughts?
Thanks,
Chloe
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