Posted by Chloe on September 1, 2002, at 17:17:28
Hi All
I have had 5 treatments of ECT, and I think I am worse off than I started. After the first three, I was feeling pretty good, giddy, silly, happy. Then treatment #4 I had a really uncontrolled seizure that lasted 114 seconds. I woke up really confused and my memory felt like it was erased. It's rather disconcerting to lose your memory, but in the beginning it was fun. Now I feel scared and lost and more suicidal than ever. I have nothing left to loose. Everything that can be done for me has been tried. Maybe I just wasn't meant to live on this Earth.
I am off the Depakote and Neurontin. That is a big relief to me. But the small amount to of Li, doxepin, Celexa and valium just isn't cutting it. What the hell am I supposed to do now? When the treatment of last resort didn't even work...
I am scared. And I am not sure who I am anymore...Chloe
poster:Chloe
thread:118438
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