Posted by Jerrympls on August 10, 2002, at 4:29:44
In reply to to jerry re steroids cortisol, posted by glenn on August 9, 2002, at 11:41:10
Well, my doc is going to research cortisol and depression. He actually knew quite a bit - but was going to confer with an endocrinologist friend of his about my case. We talked about getting some tests done (cortisol levels, testosterone, etc) because of my dramatic positive reaction to the Medrol. I could go on and on about how "normal" I was feeling the 6 days I was on them: I started listening to music again and would sing along in the car, was motivated to start to get in shape and start dating again, eagerly looked forward to spending time with friends, started thinking about composing again, laughed out loud at funn TV shows, was telling more jokes - being more positive at work, didn't dread going to work, and not to mention an wonderfully increased sex drive......
I don't know if anyone will understand this, but I judge my depression a lot on how much I do/don't want to listen to music and if I so, exactly how I feel/what kinds of music I listen to, etc. Music has slowly been fading out of my life for the past years - I'm a classically trained musician and used to feel so much beauty from listening and performing music. Now, it's nothing more than a chore. Then I started the Medrol and music came alive again (among other things mentioned above). I cried the first night because I realized it is actually possible to be able to feel "normal." My hope has been running thin and to have those couple days of "non-depression" was so nice. Now, of course, it's gone and replaced with intense saddness, crying, etc. A cruel, cruel joke.
Sorry to ramble - I've probably already posted all this stuff - but, so help me, I will find out how this reaction is related to my depression.........I will of course keep you posted.
Thanks again for all the info
Jerry
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