Posted by janejj on July 3, 2002, at 15:37:14
In reply to Re: SSRI induced apathy, posted by linkadge on July 3, 2002, at 14:36:32
Hi,
I take Prozac, at 40mg. I know what you mean about the depth of emotion, i used to feel things so deeply and I could empathize with people, generally I just felt very intune with my emotions. Now I am not sure about how I feel about anything, i feel like a fake !!! I don't know whether I care about certain people and issues or not ? Its such a strange place to be in, I feel so confused too !!! Is there anythig that can help ?
What SSRI do you take?
> I am on Celexa and feel the
> same way. When I wasn't on
> them, emotion just had
> an unparralelled depth, It
> was just too painful to bear
> however. Things would just be
> so so so sad. It is really quite
> hard to explain. Now all I can
> do is laugh and make jokes, it is
> fine in public, I have turned into
> a social butterfly, but at home
> when I am by myself I sometimes
> feel so phony it is unbeleivable.
>
> I can't complain that much because
> it has literally helped me get out
> of my mind and back into life. I
> get things done now, I just feel
> like I can only experience one emotion.
>
> Do you rememer things about how colors
> made you feel, or how you kind of got
> frightened and imaginative when seeing
> an old haunted house on a dark night.
> I had strange feelings when looking at
> things like railways and churches that
> are gone now. I used to enjoy a somewhat
> darker side of life that just made you
> feel in awe. Things like looking up
> at a tower and feeling just how small you
> were.
>
> Motion and movement are another thing
> that seem squelched. Things like seeing
> a huge rollercoaster swoosh down the
> track enduced such a feeling of power.
> I don't feel amazed by much anymore.
> Someone's massive body or exceptional
> tallent doesn't seem to make me want
> to be a better person. I rarely feel
> enspired by people.
>
> There isn't that sence of achievement
> as well. I could jog 10 miles and
> feel good about my self but not
> WOW that was amazing.
>
> A perfect example. When watching the
> matrix a few years ago, I left the theatre
> thinking wow that was cool. Then the next
> two weeks, I felt myself soaring and moving
> and spinning about like the actors.
>
> Now I watch the movie and all I appreciate
> is things like the colors, or the costume
> design, or the acting skills, or the
> way Keano Reeves says whoa or fruitish things
> like that.
>
>
>
> I AM CONFUSED
poster:janejj
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