Posted by adamie on May 30, 2002, at 18:30:01
I came across this site--
http://www.dsuper.net/~styan/neurolep.htmhere is some of what is said--
"1) that neuroleptic (antipsychotic) medication is brain-damaging and brain-mutilating, nothing less than chemical lobotomy.2) that chemically lobotomized patients lose their personality. They become "robotic" as the result of the damage caused to their frontal lobes and limbic system. Typical changes are apathy, lack of initiative, loss of memory and concentration, emotional indifference and loss of deeper feelings and tenderness.
3) that Tardive dyskinesia (TD) a movement disorder, affecting any of the voluntary muscles, is most likely to occur in 50% of mentally disturbed patients treated with neuroleptics. The condition strikes usually after 6 months to 2 years of treatment and is incurable. Twisting tongue movement, puffing cheeks, smacking of lips, sucking movements of the mouth, face and body movements characterized by continuous rocking motions, tremors and bizarre postures, just to name a few are such symptoms"
--------------is all of this true? this is coming from a website that advocates psychotherapy over medication so of course they are biased.
the thing is AD's generally dont work for me. not in my experience with the 17 meds or so that i tried. some herbal. paxil worked a bit but i dont want to be a zombie with no loving emotions at all.
so far AP's have worked best for me. Most AD's i cannot tolerate and cause me to be suicidal.
So I want to try another AP.
I tried zyprexa and risperdal. and i live in canada. so one of the 6 AP meds i cant get.
anyway i may have to be on an AP if it helps enough Long Term.
does taking them for a long time really have a lot of danger? and is it true that over time you become more robotic on these AP's? I want loving and caring emotions. This paxil I am taking now is really limiting that.
so do i really have much to worry about regarding taking an AP? What are your experiences? I want to be able to have passion and love for a girl i hope to live with in the future. Will i be able to have those types of feelings and emotions? it is hard to remember exactly how i was on those two AP's before but i think risperdal i did have loving emotions. i dunno how much though. my dose was low. 0.5 mg.
also out of clozapine (Clozaril), quetiapine (Seroquel), and sertindole (Serlect).. which one should i try? i dont want something too drowsy, zyprexa made me want to sleep ALLLLL the time. recently i have had terrible insomnia for 4 days but it seems to be going away and i am a bit back to my usual daytime sleepy sometimes type of state of mind. it has mostly been easy for me to sleep so what should i try that wont cause much day time sleepiness?
risperdal had me awake enough during the day but... in the end i would feel like hell during evenings or morning and would be extremely sleepy during those moments but those passed and the rest of the day was usually not too bad as in i usually wouldn't think of suicide. before that when i was first taking risperdal it was like a tiny miracle! I was working on some computer stuff, i had more motivation... then it just went down. but anyway i could try it again. perhaps i need a bigger dose?
but anyway we can save that idea for later. I want to try another AP.
please give me some oppinions. i dont want my emotions to be numbed.
poster:adamie
thread:108096
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