Posted by adamie on May 20, 2002, at 0:36:48
are these two the same? i am hoping to order modafinil as well as adrafinil if the people who so called 'love me' can take time away from their precious work to simply spend 10 minutes to order it for me. these meds can CHANGE MY LIFE possibly. expecially adrafinil which i tried before. what an amazing feeling it was starting to have. I dont see why people who say they love me... and one who i am even going to have a child with... cant take the time to do one tiny thing for me that could mean SOO MUCH. i hope my lady friend will order it for me... i need to wait for her e-mail reply. then there is the backup lady. i wonder if she can spend the 30 dollars for the smallest package of adrafinil. she had made such a big deal to try and not order it. how could she say she loves me when she doesn't even want to take care of my mental health? this can be the closest thing to a damn cure. oh well... people dont know what real love is. but this is what i have to settle for. the perfect woman dissapeared. maybe she is dead. i dunno what happened to her. and now i plan to be with this other woman but she doesn't even take the time to hardly ever talk to me. oh well. at least with her i have financial support. i certainly cant work with my severe mental illnesses. i am a very loving person so i will love her as much as i can, it's easy for me to have a passion for her even when she gives hardly anything in return. perhaps things will be different when i take the trip from canada to california to live with her for summer vacation. they deffinetly will. but how much... oh well. the best i can do. and i will be grateful for it. bleh this is just the negativity talking. i will make the best of it. and she will be loving towards me when she is with me. things will not be too bad. she wants my baby and i will love one with her. hopefully when i go there she will tolerate me and accept me for who i am and this illness that consumes me. hopefully i will be more stable when i go live with her.also can someone tell me more about these two meds???
best to take before evening? i had severe sleep trouble. but man what a great feeling aside from that. the sleep trouble got so severe that my mental state went downhilllllllllllllll.
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