Posted by LiLAngelJenna on May 3, 2002, at 19:20:09
I Just turned 20 years old and should be at a point in my life where I'm out dating, going places with friends, partying..whatever.. Just expieriencing life.. But I have yet to do any of that because I feel so ugly.. I cant even stand to look in the mirror, it makes me feel angry and frustrated that I have to look this way and knowing that theres nothing I can do to change it.. I could probably accept this IF My brother and Mom weren't constantly reinforcing constantly.. He has SOME comment regarding my looks EVERY single day in a negative way.. he makes sure Im aware how ugly I am.. he'll tell me that Im so 'gross looking you'll never get anyone in life' or that I should Just go kill myself.. Mind you, that is a Sick thing to say to ANYONE but the effect is has on someone in a depressed state of mind takes away all self esteem.. the comments replay over and over in my head. I dont go out, talk to people, or look at anyone because Im so scared their staring at how ugly I am. My mother has been insecure about herself as long as I can remember and makes No attempt to console me or even simply tell him to Just stop..Someone please help me..this is pushing me over the edge
poster:LiLAngelJenna
thread:104973
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