Posted by BarbaraCat on May 2, 2002, at 1:32:57
In reply to is this suicidal?, posted by katieb on May 2, 2002, at 0:08:29
Oh sure. There's many a time that life seems too screwed up and ridiculous and sad and I just don't wanna do it anymore. However, not wanting to live is very different from actively pursuing and planning to die. Also, there's a bit of fascination in the subject for many of us. As long as it stays away from being obsessive ruminating it's not particularly dangerous, but should be considered an indication of the state of depression. It's when taking action around it starts happening that help should definitely be sought.
My personal feeling about it is that I'd just have to come back and do the whole thing over again (and again and again until I got whatever it is that Life is trying to teach me) and it would probably be worse. That philosophy has prevented me from doing myself in when things got really dark and awful. Even tho' at the time it felt more like 'shit, there's NO escape'. - Barbara
> there's something i've been wondering about for a long time - often times when i'm down (not in a deep depression though) i start to think "what's the big deal about someone killing themselves?" mostly just thinking that life is really tiring and it makes sense that some people just choose to end it. i never even think about really killing myself - these thoughts about how it might not be that big a deal just come into my head.
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> so, would this count as suicidal? does anyone else just get tired of dealing w/ everything - but are not in a deep depression? i'm also scared to talk about this w/ my therapist because she might think i'm more serious than i am.
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> thanks.
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