Posted by sid on April 13, 2002, at 21:24:07
Hi all,
I've been trying to figure out what I have and don't have in terms of disorders, as I figure I might as well be informed and deal with it all. I have an anxiety problem that my doc told me about in November, when I thought I only had depression in the past and dysthymia at that point. So who knows what else I might carry around? I'm currently taking 75mg per day of Effexor XR for dysthymia and anxiety.
So I discussed possible diagnoses with my doc, and she said perhaps I have BPD (borderline personality disorder). When I read the description, it makes me think of what I was like during my major depression episodes, but I don't think I'm like that anymore. I have a few of the behaviors listed under DSM-IV for BPD, but not all, and I had some during the depression that went away (e.g., anger) - either with the lifting of the disease, or due to my efforts in cognitive and behavioral therapy; or both. That's what I think - is that even possible? I've been reading a bit on BPD and it seems not to have any cure but therapy can help (I'm not about to go back, as I figure I've done a lot of work, I'm proud of it, and I'd rather live a little for now!). I also read that it can be a manifestation of a modd disorder, which would bring me back to "I was like that during my depression, but not anymore."
Any thought on all this? I thought I had avoidant personality disorder, and she hits me with BPD. I'd rather have nothing at all. :-) And sometimes I just feel like taking my darn pills and not worry about what I might have, as long as I'm happy. I must say that her take on my possibly suffering from BPD did not make my day. I'd presumably have to see a psychiatrist to be sure, but I have a very bad opinion of them and frankly, the thought of seeing one gives me the hibby-jibbies. Sorry Dr.Bob.
- sid
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