Posted by BarbaraCat on March 31, 2002, at 13:00:31
In reply to Re: Methedrine now called Desoxyn (no, it's not) » 3 Beer Effect, posted by kazoo on March 31, 2002, at 2:44:45
Interesting article. I agree with you about the life long meth Jones. I also don't know about 'therapeutic doses', I only know about how I abused the stuff. I started innocently enough (doesn't everyone?) in high school - a friend had a part time job at a drug store and used to swipe handfuls of uppers. After my first rush, I thought 'whoa, so THIS is life!' A perfect antidote to a miserable homelife and an annoying shyness. One thing led to another (I was a product of the 60's and did 'em all) but it was Meth that was my fave and eventually I had a full blown meth Jones that lasted for 3 years and then sporadically for another 2. I was even snorting meth while I had a very serious case of mono. Not good when you're staying up 3, 4 days straight without sleep.
The only thing that finally led me away from it was getting into a serious spiritual practice, new friends, and becoming disgustingly squeaky clean (you might say a Pure Jones). I've said it before here - I have found nothing so Zen-like, so focused and clear as a good clean meth buzz. On the other hand, there is also nothing so jagged, frayed, bugs crawling under the skin loony, paranoid, sweating, jigged out weird than a meth bender either. Perhaps it can be likened to the euphoric early state of a productive hypomania vs. the scattered frazzled later state of psychotic mania.
I've got to wonder just how all that dopamine depletion is affecting me now or will in the future (Parkinson's?). I guess that I've been able to get a brain after all and would run from a line like from the beasts of hell. I hear about the Ritalins, dexadrines, etc. for ADD and hope like hell it's doing some good and not only palliative. I get tempted to try a pstim for my own possible ADD, but then think 'Naaah! Don't wanna go down that road no more.'. I'm sure it is a miracle in good hands, but there's just something about those speed like drugs that when abused can open a person to pure evil. - BCat
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