Posted by vanessa on March 19, 2002, at 14:22:13
In reply to Re: this one's kind of depressing, sorry » trouble, posted by Libby Bonine on March 18, 2002, at 18:12:26
Yes, I've been as bad as you, and do empathise with your pain. There are levels of clinical depression, from still being able to function to being so comitose one has to be fed.** And you seem to be at pretty deep level...My last "bout" with deep depression lasted 3 years; after Nardil stopped working. Nothing else worked...not the l3 medications,the many different combinations of medicines, the ECT, the therapy or the "healthy" things I tried. "Going outside" and such made me feel worse, because not feeling the "life" around me made me painfully aware of what I had lost. I lived on the couch. Every morning, I cried when I woke up, because things were just as bad as the night before.Everything was dark, despairing, hopeless, like being in quicksand at the bottom of a dark well.... I am glad to say I finally found a combination of medications (not usually used together) that help somewhat. It has been along struggle. I can function. I am for sure better than I was. But I still have days of depression, and I am still looking for the "right" med. (I am lucky to have a tenacious well-informed doctor who has never doubted for one minute the biological nature of my illness, bipolar II, And I am lucky to know about the site
Psychobabble, where I have found valuable information and others with sometimes complicated conditions.)
I sincerely hope something works for you, and soon.
*** see Demitre and Janice Popolos book
on Depression).
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