Posted by Shanti on March 19, 2002, at 9:06:45
Good morning everyone,
i just had a wonderful experience that i would like to share with everyone on how you can integrate DP (new term) into positive experiences.
this is usually me DP time, however the last few days have been a little bumbpy but with a lot of me being consisously aware of my swings i have avoided the "crash & burn" i usually experience.
i just returned from a trip to church to have my pastor fill out the reg. form for my daughter's bc. while there i started to talk to him and noticed he wasn't really paying attention (he does have a funeral this morning the fellow that passed away was very young (46) and he and his family are members of this church) so i can understand why he is preoccupied but hey "i have something to say and i need god right now and your not listening" so when i left i started to get pissed off (1st sign of DP for me) and i started to get back into the old "poor me - i need you right now and your not there for me" and i could literally feel the power of confusion overtake me (going from calm, and serene to really pissed off and anger with the snap of a finger) but as i was driving home i drove by an older woman 1 street over and she was bent down beside an old toilet trying to get something off. i drove by then for some reason put the car in reverse, rolled down my window and told her it was great to see her out here doing something out of her element! she then explained that she was trying to get one piece off from another but the screw wouldn't turn. so i offered to help. i noticed she only had a pair of plyers (don't know my tools sorry for all you "Tim the Tool Man"'s out there!) so i told her i would go home and get the proper tool.
when i got back she thanked me and we began to try and get if off while doing this i learned that she is a widow. since i had to go home again to get the right size socket i decided to write out our name/phone # for her so if she ever needs some help i'm sure between myself, husband, son we can help her (and if you look in the dictionary on dummies for house repairs you would see a picture of our fammily trust me! but we somehow manage to get the job done!!)
all of a sudden a man pulled up, someone she knows at first he said it couldn't be done but in my DP state i'm starting to feel (huge energy right now) i say we can do it if we try. so we tried and guess what we got it done! (with a lot of muscle power). while working together Mrs. T. said what a great way to meet a councillor and i didn't understand at first but then bang- the man helping out is one of our town councillors. what a way to meet, but you know what friends i took this DP state i was beginning to get in (while entering it i finally realized if things don't happen the way i want them to happen - talk to my pastor so be it there must be a reason why and instead of letting cofusion reign by allowing my emotions to go from being a little angry to a full blown rest of my day is crap and into the night, and into next week crap. i let it go and look what happened, i helped someone who needed help, met a friend and networked with a town councillor (who will always remember me the toilet lady with all the funny comments) and will continue my day not with confusion but yet with understanding!
before i say good bye - as i pulled into my driveway i thought momentarily about someone important (T.C.) knowing me and for a moment had that old pattern of i am not good enough, if he only knew the truth, etc. then i laughed and got out of my car, because so what if he "finds out" about me and DP. i learned today it is my friend and i love it (i know some of you will go huh!? i am also being a little sarcastic as well for those who are in the state of she's got to be kidding (remember i was once there myself too)
peace
your friend,
shanti
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