Posted by IsoM on February 22, 2002, at 3:08:20
In reply to Re: Anyone Who's ADHD and Also on Some Sort of Sti » IsoM, posted by Zo on February 22, 2002, at 2:12:16
I know, Zo, it does sound lame. "But hey! You've got so much going for you." And my reply is "yes, but..."
I feel that my good qualities are like little gemstone beads. Very pretty to look at, but not much use really. String them together & you'd at least have a lovely necklace. I just can't string my qualities together. And here at 52, I still don't know what I want to do with my life. All these Holland & other personailty tests strongly show that I'm meant to be a scientist, over & over again, it comes out that way. But I got side-tracked when I first entered university when young & now at my age, I don't have the sheer determination to go at it again. I tried a couple of years ago to go back to college. I got good grades, but the effort of studying full time & being sedentary that was needed for hours of study, lab write-ups, & homework set off headaches/migraines again - 3 or more a week. And my joints became so sore & stiff. I have something like fibromyalgia. I need to keep moving.
I also found out that a bachelor's in science would just make me a glorified lab flunky. I'd like to do research but I'm not prepared to get a doctorate. Even if I did, I know that I'd have my nose in every piece of research going on down the hall. I hate specialising - everything is interesting.
All I want to learn, now that I feel so good again, is how to string my gem beads to make a necklace that will prove useful. Does that make sense?
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