Posted by mcd on February 19, 2002, at 16:07:28
In reply to Re: compulsive eating, posted by sjb on February 19, 2002, at 13:57:11
> Wow, I've been off all meds for almost 2 months and been the highest weight in years, and those years were on all different ADs. Wish I knew the answer but my compulsive overeating is way out of hand now, and I have no idea what to do. Seems the SRRIs helped me initially and think I must go back. Suicide seems the only option and I think about it constantly. Almost makes me angry that I can't do it due to family. I hate my life, I hate me, and there is nothing I enjoy.
I identify so much with the way you feel. My compulsive eating,(combined with med weight gain and my inactivity), has gotten so out of hand that I'm at the highest weight I have ever been. I understand your despair at feeling so out of control, but please don't give up. I know what it feels like to want to die due to hatred of your life and of yourself. I'm thankful that you have your family and you feel connected to them enough so that you don't feel like suicide is an option right now. Please hang onto that until you can get a little more stabilized.If you've been off meds for awhile, maybe a first step might be to try to get back on something that has helped you before or ask your doctor to try something new. I think I've been on every med that's ever been invented in the last 20 years, but I recently started Lamictal and that is helping me with my depression better and more quickly than any of the antidepressants that I've tried.
I know that the more I weigh, the more I hate my life and my body. I've also found that the more I hate my weight and my body, the more weight I gain (does that make sense?). I basically give up, I guess, and just keep eating. It's only when my mood is better (maybe due to the correct meds) and I start to take baby steps to take care of myself in little ways, that I even feel capable of addressing the eating. Also, I find I need some structure to help me with the eating. If you have the resources, I found it helpful to go to a dietician who has experience with eating disorders.
You didn't mention whether or not you're in therapy or have been in therapy. I've found this to be invaluable in addressing the issues that cause me to use food in the first place.
Please keep posting and let us know how you're doing.
Mary
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