Posted by Panic AttacK on February 13, 2002, at 9:53:29
I have the desire to kill my mother. She is driving me crazy. ALl she does is yell and bitch and it drives me crazy. She is probally the reason for my anxiety disorder. My whole like she raised me in a screaming and bitching enviroment. I am 21 years old but not well enough to move out and get my own place. When I wake up, she's screaming, before i go to sleep... she's yelling from across the house. She drives me insane. She has this nasty cat that vomits everywhere everyday. ALl over my bed, on our couches, on our kitchen table, he shits in our bathtub, in the kitchen. Its been this way for years. She is yelling right now. All my firends always told me she was a crazybitch but i never wanted to except it and take it. My teachers would tell me she was a wacko and when I say something to her... she yells even more that shes not crazy. She believes the Mafia is after her and they are out to kill her. She thinks the "gay mafia" follows her. She takes alot of pills at night to sleep... for probally 20 years now. I want to slip something in her pills so it kills her. She is a BITCH. She always takes me money from me ... shes onsly nice when she needs something. I know she is supporting me..blah blha blah... but i cant take it. She is evil. She believes in god and prays alottttt but most people think she is a nice person. HAHAHA.... she doesnt have any friends..... she hasnt had a boyfirned in 15 years... she is quite bueatiful... tall skinny blonde. She works 15 hours 7 days a week. VERY HARD WORKER... but she drives me crazy. I always think about killing her. IS this part of my anxiety/panic disorder?? I picture they way I kill her... i dream of waking up and finding her dead in her bed... i always think of an easy way to kill her so she doesnt suffer to much. Maybe I am just really upset right now but times like this is when i would actually go and do something CRAZY. What do I do?
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thread:93975
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