Posted by Bekka H. on January 28, 2002, at 20:31:49
In reply to OFF all Meds: feeling better!, posted by JDavid on January 28, 2002, at 12:52:55
preferred to keep my depression, my desperation my anxiety but feeling to be "myself".
> So I did. I went off all meds.
> Slowly things and thoughts got a little better; slowly i felt to return in me, to fell me again.
> Now i'm depressed, sometimes i cry. Sometimes i would not to live yet. But now, sometimes, i feel the strength, that rise from my legs to my head and gives me and inexplicable desire of living.
> My mood is under my shoes, but sometimes i laugh, and i speak, and i express all my feelings.
> I don't wanna be anaesthetized anymore.
> I wanna fell all signals my mind send to me, good or bad they are: I wanna feel me, good or bad i am!
**************************************************Congratulations to you!!!!! You are so brave. I have been trying to do what you are doing, but I haven't given up all meds completely. Since September, however, I've spent more time off of meds than on meds, and I wish I could flush them all down the drain and never see another pill again. Most meds stifle creativity and rob you of who you are. They rob you of what makes you human. At best, most psychotropic meds make you go through the motions, but they don't seem to bring about the fundamental inner changes that I require. Keep up the great work. Even if you decide to go back on them for a while now and then, it is clear that you are on the right track. I hope I can do the same.
poster:Bekka H.
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