Posted by shelliR on December 31, 2001, at 8:07:35
In reply to Psychiatrist says I've been misdiagnosed., posted by zarathustra on December 30, 2001, at 23:10:19
> I am tired and I feel old (just turned 27) I feel like there is no one to listen or understand. I am under soooo much stress from home, job, friends, finances. I really think that I am the closest ever to actually going through with it. Its very hard to explain: When I began seeing this shrink about 4 months ago, my hope was renewed to a new level, he had me convinced that a solution was right around the corner and "AHA I know whats wrong with you!!!"
> That has not come to fruition and it has sapped ALL of my remaining hope. I cant think straight or remember anything, if this alone improved I would be much happier. Its not that I'm sad, Its that I'm neither, its like I just cant feel at all.
>
> My latest dilema is existential: Do I stay here in Toronto and find a good paying job get a house, 1.7 kids, 1.9 cars e.t.c. doing the "responsible thing"
> or
> Follow my heart and take off to the Rocky's and find some quaint friendly lumber town and live a simple life moving from place to place doing whatever I feel like? I'm 27 and I have no idea what I want to do, I know what I dont want to do; be a part of the phony capitalist materialistic 'machine'.
> I'm just rambling out thoughts, please dont feel compelled to read.
> I hate life I hate people (of which I am one), I am almost ashamed to be human.
>
> Where does one go to find themselves? church? spiritual renewal centre? Mountains? Does anyone know, or could anyone tell me what worked for them, please?
>
> AndrewHi Andrew,
I wouldn't take off quite yet. Whereever you go, you will still have the same diagnosis and lousy feelings, but perhaps no opportunity for treatment.
If you are relavively certain that this doctor is on the wrong track, I would ask for a second opinion; maybe a consultation with another psychiatrist. I know four months seems like an eternity, but for depression and/or bi-polar, it sometimes can take a while to find the right combination of meds. Most people are successful, but it takes an enormous amount of patience. You always have to remember that you are your best advocate, because you care the most, *and* you know what you're feeling, much better than any doctor.
You feel older than you are. You have many years to make the career/family decisions. Your priority should be to get your physical and mental health on track. There are many different mood stabilizers, so if after four months, you are finding no, or little improvement, you should ask for a trial of another.
Shelli
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