Posted by Anna Laura on December 18, 2001, at 0:13:51
In reply to It's been awhile...need some help, posted by Mr. Scott on December 16, 2001, at 21:56:06
Hi Mr. Scott
I really don't know what to say except i have similar reaction to SSRI (apathy, lack of motivation). The situation improved with effexor and reboxetine combo which got me rid of the pessimistic negative thinking pattern and lack of motivation; i'm still anhedonic though and i don't get any pleasure whatsoever.
This is kind of weird since i apparently look more lively and i make a lot of projects, have a great deal of new ideas since i'm much less dulled, i take care of myself more often etc... but it's just pure DRIVE wihout pleasure, feeling like a soldier on duty: i just keep on going, that's all. I do get angry more easily but it's o.K. for me since it works like a fuel to do things : i used to feel discouraged and defeated before that., sitting around and doing nothing except being sorry for myself. I think the best thing you can do is to keep on trying until you find the med you feel more comfortable with: not the miracle drug, just the med that is good enough for you to get you going/started. You might think about improving your quality of life then, which is an important thing to do because when you're depressed you neglect a great deal of life features like social life, job opportunities and interesting and stimulating things that could help you a lot if only you felt good enough to reach out for them. Sometimes depression draw you away from the outside world and gets you isolated: i call it depression induced depression, which is a burden that might significantly diminish your chance to recover and that you should get rid of as soon as you get better enough. You might want to do some psychoterapy too at that point, which it could help, as well as augmenting drug therapy on the top of it. Well, this is just a suggestion, what helped me wouldn't necessarily help you since we're different persons, but it could be an option you might think of. I just wanted to put down all i have learned during my eleven years depression. Just a thought....
Take care and don't ever loose hope.
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