Posted by cmcdougall on December 12, 2001, at 10:50:57
In reply to Re: Please Help, girl in despair, trip and methadone » kathefirst, posted by sid on December 12, 2001, at 8:49:45
Please listen to Sid - Your health is more important than this trip. Sure you need and deserve a break, but it doesn't have to be Mexico. The fact that this has taken on so much importance, that you would risk your freedom (jail in Mexico is no picnic), that you would risk your health, indicates that your thoughts on this are distorted (my cognitive therapy talking).
I know you feel that this trip is a good way to take care of yourself - I too used to think that indulging myself with something special was a great way to care for me.... A breakthrough during cognitive therapy made me realize that I have to take care of myself just like I would take care of a small child I loved, ie. supervise myself, feed myself properly, be tough with myself, and NOT indulge myself just because it would feel good.
Maybe now is the time to use this week to REALLY take care of yourself - like checking into a detox facility and ridding yourself of the addiction once and for all. IMHO that would be the best gift you could give yourself, that is the thing you deserve - not giving up on Mexico, it will always be there, but by giving yourself the gift of health. You probably do have depression, and once you're detoxed, an AD medication might fix you up nicely.
I lived on a border town for several years, and I NEVER was able to buy opiates there. The docs in the Mexican tourist towns are used to tourists coming in and seeking drugs - they are NOT sympathetic.
Good luck and really do something good for yourself.
Carly
> I'm not sure I understand all you wrote, but it sound to me like you're putting your health on the line for a 1000$ trip to mexico. And your long-run relationship with the only doc in Winnipeg who can help you. Hence your long-run prospects for health too.
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> You'll get back on your feet, there'll be other 1000$ and other trips. Your health should be the priority.
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> Take time off work, do something else. Stick around, go hiking close to home, go to the movies, whatever. Stick to whatever it is you're into at that clinic.
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> Sound like you have worked a lot in the past few years - too much probably - and you're on the verge of a burnout. Take care of yourselfe, and again, that trip seems to take you away from that.
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> Sorry that it's not what you want to hear, but reality and what we want to hear are often very different. How to deal with the gap between the two is the main challenge in life.
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