Posted by tina on November 29, 2001, at 22:19:19
In reply to Re: Fear ? What is this can you help?Hi there everyone » glenn, posted by nightlight on November 26, 2001, at 7:49:06
. I woke up up each a.m. with a feeling of dread, fear, anxiety. Fairly subtle (not a panic attack or anything) and I wd. have to drag myself thru preparations for my day. Get clean, presentable, But I felt the same way when I was single. Try to get to work on time, try to stay alert enuf at work as to not appear to be the dulled/detached/inept/innervated person I felt like. Acting normal, performing as a real-life person felt (more than) a little overwhelming, even tho I always chose jobs that I figured wd. be fairly easy, so as not to put too much stress on myself-I could not handle too much responsibility, it freaked me out to think I might screw up and disappoint my boss, colleagues.
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> But, the mixed state of fear/dread that I could not keep my end up, that all I wanted to do was go home, NOW, be safe, take a nap, rest, tend to a nagging chronic pain problem (which was intermittent, not daily) always seemed looming over my head during the daytime.this is amazing nightlight. To see myself in your description of yourself. Acting normal, performing as a real-life person--being overwhelming......it's just amazing. Just wanting to go home, NOW, crawl into bed, be safe, the whole world is scary and I don't want to be in it anymore, I just want to go home or I'm going to fall into a heap and unconsolably weep feeling. I've never seen it written so exactly in every way. What meds are you on , if you don't mind? I keep getting told that feeling this way isn't real but I know it must be. Thank you for posting this.
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