Posted by Anna Laura on November 29, 2001, at 13:57:43
In reply to Re: Anyone experience mind torture, anxiety relate » Anna Laura, posted by adamie on November 29, 2001, at 11:01:06
> > > mind torture as in even painful to be alive. cant think at all, cant concentrate. heart beating very fast. the sides of head burning.
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> > > this is on top and part of my extremely severe depression. I have no motivation for anything, no enjoyment from anything, no drive to do anything, little appetite, poor sleep, cant think, cant concentrate, memory extremely horrible, it feels sometimes as if i have no past, always living in the moment.
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> > > anyone experience mind torture or is my depression severe beyond reasonable help? ECT only helped minorly or not at all and it erased my memory but maybe much of that was from the depression anyway. almost all AD's have made me worse.
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> > > do panic attacks make people feel like every few seconds are painful to be alive?
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> > > is what I am dealing with just typical of extremely severe depression? with the mind torture time passes by extremely slow. it's like my mind cant focus on anything because it is occupied by feeling horrific beyond belief. i dunno how to describe it. also everything seems very dark. the worse it is the faster my heart beats and my head burns.
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> > Hi Adamie,
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> I tried paxil, prozac, wellbutrin, effexor, celexa, zyprexa, anafranil,
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> > I can totally relate: i have been in your shoes years ago; i still wonder how i managed to survive; at times the anxiety was so bad (it was constant) that i thought i was going to have an heart attack; which kind of drugs did you try? One small advice: try to avoid anticholinergic drugs: they might make you even more apathetic and you don't need that.
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> what is anticholinergic? and what is apathetic.
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> > I know it's very very difficult, but try to divert yourself as much as possible: avoid staying home, try to do things, go out, see people even if you feel horrible: it might help.
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> hard for me to be motivated to do anything. and i fear change. always scared i will feel worse.
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> Can you eat? Food can be important, i used to eat some honey to keep me energies up.
> > If you want to write me, i'm here any moment.
> > Take care
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> > Anna Laura
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> i eat a little. hard to eat. i am tired of feeling so suicidal. my ex-fiance has hurt me more than anyone possibly could, this to top off an extremely severe depression. i have no reason to live. every day is mind torture :***.
Hi Adamie,
First thing : see a pdoc in order to get a drug treatment suitable for you. There are many drugs out there that you can try. Don't be ashamed to do so, you can't make by yourself, none can, cause nobody can handle such a pain. If you have a broken leg to get pain-killers, right? Do you know that severe depression with major anxiety is believed to be the mental equivalent of cancer ?
Second: mind torture can definetely go away, you just have to resist until it's gone, and it will, but first you have to reach out for help; i know that to ask for help it's the most difficult thing ever when you feel bad; i used to be ashamed of my condition, i felt guilty cause i thought i could do something about it so that i felt responsable for my sufferings; moreover i was scared, i was kind of stuck in a no-escape situation: i thought that if i moved forward and searched for help i'd have felt worse. This distorted thinking is partly due to depression which induces mind clouding, hiding you the alternatives and options you can try, always showing you the worst part of life; it's like a mental "tunnel-vision".
on the other hand, this thought it's partly realistic cause moving forward and take action really makes you feel worse at first especially if you suffer from anxiety: anything unfamiliar such new events and situations often triggle anxiety; i know that very well: i coudn't even talk to people cause if i started doing so i felt so anxious i would shake.
But i kept on going. If i had staied home, i couldn't have reached out for help. I felt horrible but i kept on going out and see people until i met a wonderful pdoc who helped me to get out of that hell.
If you are so anxious you can't even get out of the house, get some benzos for temporary relief; i know that benzos are not a cure but they can help you to get less anxious in order to get some help and focus on your priorities.
It's important that you keep your energy levels up. You need to get some food. Any food is o.k. : it's surely better than nothing at all.
Don't force yourself to eat: eat small portions of food you particularly like. Drink plenty of fluids. Reasearch studies showed that drinking plenty of water makes your system more apt to face anxiety.
If you have some questions, i'll reply as soon as possible.Hang in there Adamie: this permanent night can be swept away and a new day will raise.
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