Posted by jzp on September 26, 2001, at 23:41:30
I haven't been in here in quite a while, because I was doing pretty well for the past year or so. I 25 years old, diagnosed bipolar II with a seasonal-ish component. Historically, the depression has been the big thing for me, and since I've had bad bad experience with Depakote, I've been taking 300mg Serzone and also Armour thyroid. It's worked pretty well, but lately--the past 3 months or less--I've had these weird maybe-PMS-related freakouts. I start the day feeling a little mroe desperate and melancholy than usual, and within a few hours, I have worked myself into a frenzy kind of mixed awful state. Agitated, totally irrational, and suicidal. It's intensely painful-- it feels like I'm about to crack open. Then I wear myself out, cry my eyes out, and calm back down. The next day I'm often exhausted and sort of weepy, but usually I'm mostly fine. Sometimes it happens two days in a row, but not often. It seems to happen a week or so before my period, but there have been a few times when that hasn't been the case.
Has anyone here had this kind of experience? How have you dealt? I'm really dreading having to start the medication project again-- it's scary to me.
Thanks so much!
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thread:79697
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