Posted by v on September 12, 2001, at 6:19:09
In reply to Re: in case of an accident... LONG » v, posted by Elizabeth on September 12, 2001, at 3:32:06
good morning elizabeth
i was in the middle of a long explanation of my meds when my computer crashed.... so here's a somewhat truncated version (turning rather long anyway... )
what a great idea about getting some documentation... would a search for seratonin syndrome show up the dextramethorphan as well? what about the high tolerance to pain meds? i go for a "physical" with my primary next week who has no understanding of "cocktails" to suit each individual's needs... all she sees are lots of drugs and she freaks on me and then doesn't want to give me anything else i need (particularly pain killers which i sorely need for my neck and back)
last year all she would say was that i was already in such an "altered" state... she just doesn't get it... i'm actually dreading having to tell her about the current cocktail and have even thought about leaving some of them out (i know, it's probably not that great an idea)my current cocktail is:
• 36mg concerta
• 200mg wellbutrin 2x daily
• 75mg effexor
• 1mg klonopin 3x daily (i only take .5 with my morning meds)
• 10mg buspar (this is something i've recently snuck back in - pdoc says its worthless, which was true for me regarding any anti-anxiety effects but it did have an anti-depressant effect for me which i feel i need - i figured i'd give it a trial run and then tell him when i see him next month - i think it's helping although with me, it's sometimes hard to tell.. :)
• valium, xanax & ambien on an as needed basis only, usually when i am particularly stressed (like yesterday) or am having difficulty falling asleepi still have alot of trouble getting out of the house initially... or initiating doing the things i enjoy... in fact, there is still a lack of joy in my life (hence the buspar trial), i am still easily stressed out & can become resentful (which can be the norm for me and something i dislike intensely)
i'm also turning into a scatter brained idiot from some of the meds... memory problems & sometimes it feels as if the add is worse instead of better... it's complicated by the fact that my personality is so fragmented. my current pdoc thinks EVERYTHING wrong with me is due to add (it's like he stamped it on my forehead) but i also suffer from ptsd, did and depression and have gone back into therapy to try and deal with not wanting to deal with life... for me yesterday was an extreme example of it: why should i want to remain in a world so full of hate? i can't bear the human capacity for cruelty (to each other, to animals, to the planet) it hurts, it hurts, it hurts....
sorry this turned into such a long winded answer...
btw, what ad's are you taking if you don't mind my asking? i've really appreciated your posts on this board...
blessings,
v
> Me too. But anyway, try to get some citations about the serotonin syndrome from Ultram with ADs and show them to the PA who's your "mid-level provider." :-P (Which AD are you taking, BTW?)
>
> -elizabeth
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