Posted by MCMontreal on September 4, 2001, at 22:56:27
In reply to Re: I just want to be me again » LoJo, posted by Eugene75 on August 7, 2001, at 8:17:24
Hi,
It's 11:30 pm and I've been awake for four days. I thought it was about time to make the most of the wee hours and connect with people who are going through similar experiences.
A bit about me: Diagnosed with Severe depression at 9 years old,
At 19 years old, Bipolar Disorder Without Mania, and Schizo-Affective Disorder
-originally put on Zoloft in '94 to treat depression...went off a few years later(wow, no horror story)...
-relapsed---wanted that "Zoloft" feeling again
-Dr. prescribed Paxil and Ativan..6 months later I was extreme OCD and had painted everything in my home white (my toothbrush too!), began experiencing psychotic episodes, time lapses, mania
-Barely survived getting off of it
-Went back on Zoloft for a year, Clonazepam, and Epival (a mood stabilizer) but when I reached the max dose of 200mg of Zoloft a day my Dr. said it was probably best if I tired something new...
EFFEXOR...
Oh man.
My pyschiatrist prescribed it to me and then left for another hospital. All of my files are being transferred ...I get to start from scratch...
After taking Effexor for a month, I couldn't do it anymore. I was suicidal again and was re-considering some very bad habits of mine...
I've been off it for a week now.
I'm shaking, sweating, having horrific dreams that I think are so real that I've accused people of doing things they haven't done, oh- and here's my personal favorite-
Bursting into tears every five minutes.
I can't do this anymore folks. I feel like a testing site for pharmaceutical companies...
Has anyone had a good or even decent experience with an antidepressant or alternative?
It's the depression I'm most concerned about...the mania, OCD and all that junk wasn't a part of my life until the Paxil...
I know everyone has different reactions, but this is eating my life up...I just want something to help the depression...I'm 20 years old and don't want to spend the next 20 years searching for a coping strategy.
Any advice, personal story is extremely welcomed...feeling a bit alone and anxious here.
Sorry to type so much!
MC
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