Posted by Elzabeth on September 4, 2001, at 21:16:12
In reply to Re: Topamax: Crying Jags/Suicidal Thoughts » Elzabeth, posted by allisonm on September 4, 2001, at 19:50:06
> It's been 3+ years. I've been on Zoloft, Effexor, Remeron, lithium, Wellbutrin, Neurontin, Celexa, Serzone and the occasional Ativan in different combos. Diagnosed with chronic refractory depression. Nothing has worked completely.
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> Currently on Wellbutrin and Serzone. I have had a couple of crying jags since getting on Serzone, but they have gone away. I heard somewhere, but cannot tell you where, that this can happen several weeks or months after starting Serzone. I have found the Wellbutrin/Serzone combo helpful but not completely effective. Am on 300mg of each per day. I think my pdoc is going to raise one of them tomorrow. I still have that dead feeling -- not reacting to things, not caring... I would not take a drug holiday knowing how suicidal I was in January of '98 without drugs. So far I have avoided MAOIs, although my doctor has brought them up. I am deathly afraid of the 2-week washout and then the weeks of building up again. May have to go that route, though, if this stuff continues not to really work.
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> Good luck.
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> Allisonm* * * *
Regarding you note ... What is Chronic Refractory Depression?
I talked with my psych nurse today ... She works in tandem with my doc. She's going to talk with him tomorrow and call me back. I definately want to cut back ... or do something. The Topamax is bothering me -- the smell of my B.O. -- it's in my skin -- under my nails -- it's in everything I eat, I it's in my hair -- I can't stand it. Everthing I eat stinks. I stink. It's awful. Can't think. I topple when I walk, I itch. For me, it's just bad medicine. The Serzone, I'm not sure, but something worsening my depression, making me cry and think suicidal thoughts -- I'm guessing this is it.
I'm almost ready to talk electro shock therapy. Excuse me, I don't know the correct terminology here.
:-(
Am worried, nervous scared about going off meds, but will see ... how it goes ... I am not seeing my M.D. again until 9/25 ... I think I can hang in there until then.
It is -- so hard -- to find the right combinations of drugs to make things work. The idea of popping a little pill for just a little lift -- just a little lift -- I guess it's just a dream.
XXX, E.
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