Posted by adamie on August 31, 2001, at 16:54:31
I have generally had a very bad experience with anti depressants. There is no doubt in my mind that for the time I have went on anti depressants they made me feel worse and in one case much much worse (effexor). My depression is also caused by accutane (excess vitamin A). So it's a very rare type of depression where I generally have extremely bad concentration compared to normal. And this causes lack of emotions and inability to enjoy things.While I am doing somewhat better now off meds I feel if I become worse again I will need to take something just for the sake of trying again. I will have adrafinil soon. I made an order but assuming it doesn't work is it possible that while the anti depressants make me worse that in the end when the full AD effect comes in it will make me feel better? Or perhaps the whole problem is the AD effect. Perhaps inhibiting re-uptake is just not for me. And therefor the longer I stay on a med the worse it would make me? This is what happened with effexor. I was only on it for 1 week but it actually made me feel suicidal. almost constant mind torture. The first dose I took I know I didn't feel right. It created some type of apathy and I just felt detached from the world. Then the second day I was feeling my usual bad self. Then 3rd day worse. much worse. then 4th day much worse. 5th day worse. ect.. 7 days into it I just had to stop. It hasn't been as bad with wellbutrin, zyprexa, and also paxil.
Could it be that something these anti depressants do is just bad for me while the full anti depressant effect later on would make me feel better?
I read somewhere that for people where seratonin meds cause worsening of depression that an anti convulsant could be good. But all anti depressants in general (at least from what I have tried) have made me worse. so i dunno.
does someone know how the anti convulsants work? do they inhibit re-uptake? I hope they have a very different action than these AD's.
Hopefully it wont come to me having to go another med but in case I feel bad enough and up to trying something else I think I may try Remeron. Since it's supossed to even possibly work in just a few days, and sometimes in a week. fact acting. so finally I will be able to give something a full trial. Since for remeron that would be maybe 4 weeks instead of the usual 6-8 to be sure of sucess or failure. If it wouldn't make me too much worse I could stick with it.
Does anyone have any insight to my problem? While the meds make me emotionally feel worse at first could they make me much better in the end? Does anyone have any knowledge or experience in such a situation? And regarding side effects, I have had almost none at all! Nothing bothersome in all those 4 meds I tried. Except sedation from zyprexa and of course the worsening of depression but I consider that aside from side effects. It is simply something that is wrong. It's not supossed to happen. Thanks for reading.
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