Posted by Zo on August 28, 2001, at 15:36:12
This is kind of a repost, hope to keep discussion going:
I'd hate to say how much my work (writing, sometimes painting) depends on the right meds in the right balance. Have worked at therapy many years, just as ardently pursued the biochemicaland spiritual as well.
And it all, consistently, comes down to meds. While I was on Zyprexa, first 6 months of this year, I finished my novel, got an editor, could work regularly for the FIRST time. A
And since I went off it. . .God, I don't want to discourage anybody, but this is my truth, one person's situation. . .the MS has been lying here a few hours of revision, literally, short of going to my agent. My initative is gone.
Similarly, I lost interest in painting when I started on Neurtontin two years ago. The fire went out.
I'm not helpless. I am ill, and still struggling to put together a med package that works. . .for the umpteenth time. Further complicated by the fact that part of my dx is ALSO where the wonderful writing comes from! When I'm in a seizurey state (TLE) I am in The Flow! Writing is effortless!
Curing my "creative madness" just isn't in the cards. It would be the same as dead.
Much amiguity, and in the end, we have to chart our own course.
Zo - BPII, TLE, ADD, CFS/FM, abuse-survivor, funny as hell writer
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