Posted by Lorraine on August 24, 2001, at 13:17:31
In reply to Re: Update Lorainne, Elizabeth, et. al. » Lorraine, posted by shelliR on August 22, 2001, at 19:59:15
Hi shelli:
I am sorry that I didn't respond to this. I think I did but messed up when I posted. I've been wondering how you are and why you haven't posted recently. (ok 2 days< g >)
> > >[re parnate] But I did feel really tired and sick; I do remember that.
I felt pretty sluggish in the afternoons, which then expanded to the mornings. I gave up Neurontin during the day to help alleviate this. Shelli, mood diaries help with the "memory" problems. I'd be lost without one.
> > > Well, not everyone has alters. So you already know you're different from most people. And then it does really get into what the definition of DID is.All a bunch of group think. I think all the symptom clusters are an example of the human capacity to spot patterns where none exist.:-)
[re talk therapist]You could just view her as you "work" therapist and see her when you are capable of "work".
Wellbutrin is a great drug if it works for you. It is a puppy upper and I felt it right away. (we seem to respond differently though to drugs).
I was very suicidal
I am so sorry to hear this. And concerned. How are you now? Does it help to remember to just crawl under the desk until the storm passes?
What happened with your pdoc on Thursday?
> > > I can't even discribe how low I had gotten. And tt scares me to think it is not over yet.I know that must be really scarey. I hope you are doing ok. I feel like a heel for not responding to this sooner (you don't need to take care of me on this :-)
> > >I'm glad that Jahl reminded me of the lability aspect of the wellbutrin, because it's enabling me to keep a minisule perspective right now.
I thought I was going to crawl out of my skin on Wellbutrin. My anxiety shot through the roof. But I know a lot of people don't have that reaction and I hope you are one of them.
> > >I made an appointment with someone for next week which was a crazy thing to do
You might have thought it would make you feel more in control or that you were accomplishing something. Your work provides you with a lot of rewards usually. It must be hard to be unable to function.
> > >so I am feeling off-center and very unprofessional. But at least she is off the schedule for next week.It's like they say in an airplane, first you put the oxygen mask on yourself, then you do for others. You know this, but I will say it anyway, it is not unprofessional to take care of yourself when you are sick. It is irresponsible to not take care of yourself when you are sick. You are doing everything you can Shelli. You just can't control this disease or your response to meds. All you can do is batten down the hatches during the tough times and survive so that you will be here when times are better--moods pass. I also want to remind you that you have a serious disease. If you were having a bad spot with MS, you would go easier on yourself I think. Somehow, I think, we buy into the notion that we "ought" to be able to do better than we can even though we know it's not something we can snap out of.
> > > Did you used to like vacations. I mean, is this part of the depression? Do you ever just go away with your husband?
Hard to say if I used to like vacations. I think I thought I was supposed to enjoy vacations. I go away with my husband once a year. This is terrible to admit, but I still find I have to "manage my energy" level to make it good for him.
> > >I'm hoping that her teenage years won't be too rough on us.
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> I hope they won't be rough on her :-)They say that the years of greatest risk for mental illness are the years of hormonal change. I share your hope for her.
> I 've only just heard about spontaneous hypertensive crises in the last week. (Of course, I've never had one). It's good to see what your doctor thinks. Have you taken your BP at home during these headaches?Just today and it was fine. Well the rash may end the Parnate trial for me. I have to see if it subsides.
Do take care of yourselfLorraine
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