Posted by shelliR on August 20, 2001, at 15:04:03
In reply to Snail`s Pace, posted by sweetmarie on August 20, 2001, at 5:45:45
Hi Anna,
I wish you lived on this side of the ocean, so I could help you paint your kitchen and bath.
Total bummer that the things you've planned are taking so long to materialize. The second time I decided to go into the hospital (the first being over ten years previously), I was totally petrified because my first experience was so so horrible. So of course, I after I finally made up my mind okay, I cannot stay alive any other way, they have no beds open. Then everyday for ten days they tell me they'll have a bed the next day, and the next day same thing. I went up from 20mg to 30mg of valium in just ten days because the waiting time made me so anxious. Then they wanted to work on valium addiction ! :-)
I think it's really bad that these things were not in place for you when you are making such a dramatic transition. But you will get through; they just never try to make things easier for you (maybe easier for them). Are you still going to be working with a doctor long distance from the hospital, or one in your community? The more contacts you have when you are waiting for things to fall into place, the better. But I'm sure, you will even out, and get at least to the place where you left the hospital, if not even further along. Ten days feels like a long time now, but probably only eight more to go. Distract, distract, distract.
I had a horrible time with depression last week and weekend and sleep a lot, only I love tennis, so I watched every tennis match on television. Maybe your dad can help you with painting. People can sometimes pull more energy out than you can yourself. But we gentle with yourself until the program is open. If you feel like watching television and sleeping, I think that is okay, because it is very hard to wait. Any other family members who could go to a movie with you, or take walks? Just do whatever you can and once you get into the program, I think things will look up.
Hang in there, Shelli
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