Posted by Wendy B. on August 9, 2001, at 12:04:28
In reply to Re: Art and depression » Wendy B., posted by v on August 8, 2001, at 7:31:42
> wendy, you sound very wise and your words are much appreciated
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> i just had to stick my 2¢ in after reading this post...blessings, v******
Thanks, V, you made my day... Haven't heard much from you on the board, how are you doing lately?
more blessings, Wendy
********> > Mickey,
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> > Yes, sometimes artists who are also teachers get mixed up and become teachers who do art... Know what I mean? I think the goal is to remember that the painting is the work, the calling, for most people who define themselves as artists.
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> > That said, you should feel free to NOT paint and have that be ok. No one else is judging you about not painting, I assume. Try not to judge yourself so harshly. I realize if that were so easy, none of us would be depressed or anxious or whatever, but...
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> > Everyone in my sibling group & my mother, including me, have a theatrical bent, we sing, dance, and tell funny stories. We almost all paint, draw, act, play music, write. Sometimes we have done it for a living, sometimes we have taught in order to pay the bills. It's easier to focus on oneself and one's own growth as an artist, to not teach. It is physically draining, makes it harder to go in the studio when you're tired. Then there are the students themselves, who can drain you emotionally. As a college teacher, I had so many girls who were going to get an abortion, or who were anorexic, or boys who had crushes on me or couldn't finish papers because they had to play a basketball game, or their grandparent died, etc, etc. Each one requires individual attention, and you get involved in their lives and worry about them. You're a human being responding to other humans. That can take its toll on us as well.
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> > However, the exigencies of life, such as bill-paying, get muddled up with teaching art or writing or acting. And what people do to find the proper balance, for them, is a subject of much debate, as I'm sure you know. There are probably many books on the subject... Go to amazon.com and get yourself a book to read that may have ideas or suggestions.
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> > So why not just think of this time as a much-needed break from painting, or painter's block, and just leave it at that... If you are in the middle of a depression, just wait this period out. Easy to say, hard to do. But keep those negative critic words away. Don't paint if you can't, it's all OKAY. Give yourself some slack. It's a time of growth. Something positive WILL come out of this period for you, I know it, I have really been there.
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> > Play guitar, listen to music, go to a local hangout and listen to people play music. Go to some art galleries and museums, try to get yourself out of yourself and enjoy what others have made.
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> > Give yourself a break. You will get back to your artwork, with the lifting of the depression that the med will give you. Keep looking for the right med if the Celexa doesn't do it, or try a combination of meds. You've only been on the celexa for 2 weeks, give it time...
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> > You have support here, keep writing to us, that in itself can be very therapeutic.
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> > :-]
> > Wendy
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> > > I have been an artist and art teacher for many years. Though friends and colleagues have been complimentary about my work (painting) I began to become very critical of my own work and also began to lose enthusiasm for teaching. These feelings and thoughts began to snowball over late spring and summer to the point where I now have stopped painting completely. I begin teaching again in three weeks and am feeling withdrawn. I started celexa two weeks ago and though I am feeling better I still do not wish to paint and dread the idea of going back to work.
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> > > I am curious if there are any people out there involved in the arts who have had similar experiences and would like to know if anti-depressants have helped get them back on track. Many people believe that art is a form of therapy but I don't think it works that way for someone who's art is their career.
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