Posted by wendi on August 7, 2001, at 23:11:39
In reply to Wendi and » Willow, posted by Cam W. on August 7, 2001, at 22:32:47
> Cam, I'm sorry about you losing your daughter. I have 3 children and I couldn't even imagine anything happening to one of them. I think I would at that point want to become emotionless. I hope the best for you in your recovery and that you are able to open up to a therapist for your sake. That is a lot to hold within yourself.
Wendi - I increased my dose more slowly (37.5mg every 3 days), but then my meds are paid for. Going from 150mg to 300mg is quite a jump, but it gets the side effects over with quicker. I found that going from 225mg to 262.5mg, that I almost immediately had more energy; even more so from 262.5mg to 300mg. I found I had trouble sleeping. Once I got use to the 300mg dose (approx. 1 week), I started to sleep better (seldom need to use the Starnoc), but I was dragging my butt in the morning.
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> For the past 2 weeks I have been taking one Dexedrine Spansule 10mg. This gives me all kinds of energy until about 1pm, when I could use a nap. I still have little to no problem sleeping at night. I like the Dexedrine and that kinda scares me, as I don't want to use it, even though it helps immensely (silly addiction fear?).
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> Willow - One thing that I have noticed, is at the 300mg dose I am more impulsive (eg. when I said I was leaving the board), then I immediately feel guilty. I have also done some other really stupid stuff, but this could be a combination of the stress of going back to work, and the stress of approaching civil suits involving the death of my daughter (also the stress of trying to find a new "normal" for myself). It's tough to strip your ego to the core and try to find what I want to keep of the old Cam, what I want to throw away, and what I can realistically do (yeah, yeah, Dr.B., I know what you want me to throw away).
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> I see my pdoc on Thursday and we will talk about it. For some reason I am balking at psychotherapy; I just don't want to do it. I figure (in my own convoluted way) that it will be a pain in the ass and I don't want the hassle. I have already convinced myself that I will not open up to a therapist.
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> Perhaps raising the dose to 375mg....
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> sign me - Confused in Canada.
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