Posted by Chloe on July 25, 2001, at 8:54:59
In reply to Re: Now I am a dopamine touchy » Chloe, posted by Mitch on July 25, 2001, at 0:12:16
I get your point. And you are right I am not hearing voices or hallucinating. But I do have very distorted thinking and perceptions that make it difficult to manage in this world.
I don't really feel comfortable being specific about my toubles out here on the www, however, surfice it to say, I have been hospitalized several times, and continue to seek ways to stay sane dispite my "psychotic features."
I know I am going to have big troubles when I stop this stuff. I am so much calmer and able to understand and communicate better. That is one of the hardest things for me. I get into situations where I don't understand the meaning of discussion. I tend to be a bit paranoid and self deprecating and obsessive about things. I will replay a conversation or event over and over in my head, putting a negative twist on everything. I am chronically anehedonic, until Geodon.
So, I really don't know what to do and my pdoc seems at sea as well. She knows me well, and knows the AP's work wonders for me. But at what cost?..I am on two mood stabilizers (Trileptal, neurontin), an AD(Celexa) and a benzo(Valium), which allow me to survive. But with little hope or lust for life. I cannot hold a paying job.
That my story. I wonder how the next chapter is going to go...
Any ideas for a med for anehedonia and distorted thinking that doesn't cause EPS? :)
Chloe
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