Posted by Else on July 6, 2001, at 19:47:30
In reply to Re: diagnoses and stuff » Else, posted by Elizabeth on July 6, 2001, at 0:57:04
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> The way I would describe people with GAD is that they ruminate. They regularly have initial insomnia because they can't "shut their thoughts down" in order to go to sleep.
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> You can't get Rivotril from your pdoc for anxiety? That's weird. Why not?
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> -elizabethIt would not surprise me at all that most teenage girls could be considered BPD. I think BPD has replaced hysteria as a one-size-fits-all diagnosis for women. The description you make of GAD suits me exactly. I can't shut down, physically or mentally. There have been times I forced myself to drink alcohol even though I felt like throwing up just because I wanted my stupid ruminating thoughts to stop. I even took anti-histamines as tranquilizers because they would make me unable to think. Given that I would prefer being hit over the head than take Benadryl, that pretty much says it all.
My brain wont shut down. Mostly it's worries but I also go over events that happenned during the day, regretting that I did this, or didn't do that. I also rehearse conversations that I plan to have with so and so, mostly my doctor. I try to predict objections he might have and figure out how I might counter them. All the while, I am aware that this is stupid and useless but I can't stop. At times I thought I was obsessive-compulsive but my thoughts don't really have that repetitive quality. They are just about whatever.
My pdoc told me once he would NEVER prescribe benzos for me. He didn't say why but I presume it's because I was hospitalised for a drug overdose (a suicide attempt, with TCAs, chloral hydrate and alcohol but not benzos, mind you). I tell him benzos are the only drugs that work for me and he looks at me condescendingly like all I want is to get high.
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