Posted by jeffb on June 26, 2001, at 22:59:34
I started taking effexor 75 for social anxiety and I thought it was helping. I had it pretty bad for about 6 months to a year, but only saught help after it got really bad. I also learned that had episodes of depression, which I would have been able to identify but didn't know much about them.
At around the same time in my life (3 months ago), I started having a person come very close to me in my heart and this person has grown only closer. I still felt the anxiety on and off, but definitely less, and started feeling on-and-off depression. Now we are away from eachother for the summer but a recent visit only made us closer. When I feel fine or when I feel depressed, this person means the world to me, so I know I'm not just falling for someone great because they comfort me- in fact, she's pretty independent and doesn't know really know anything about depression, so I generally leave that out of our relationship.
To make a long story short, I'm having horrible depression jumping in and out.. sometimes great happiness. Sometimes I don't want to talk to anyone. I feel sometimes as if I'm a different person every few days, but my friends say I don't seem that way. (of course not) It's almost as if I can control the depression, but it takes a lot of effort, and most of the time I have to just give up and weep on my bed. So many of us have been there, my heart goes out to you all. Is this the Effexor causing depression.. am I just in love? Am I just insanely emotional? I never used to be like this.
I'm wondering if the Effexor has caused my depression, or if it could be this person I have grown to love. I haven't told my doctor about this new person in my life, but have told him about the depression and reduction (although not elimination) of social anxiety. He switched me about 4 weeks ago from the 75 mg to the 150 mg, and I have noticed no difference really. I've never felt this depressed, but when I do, I tend to only focus on this person I care about so much.. is that just my instinct to reach out to someone who cares about me or could this person really be causing the depression because they hold such a strong place in my heart?
Thanks for reading.
poster:jeffb
thread:68029
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