Posted by Lorraine on June 26, 2001, at 9:50:22
In reply to Re: Back from the hospital, re: meds, eliz et al. » Lorraine, posted by shelliR on June 25, 2001, at 21:18:53
> > > I had very bad suicidal feelings Friday and Saturday, but the oxycontin pulled me through once it kicked in.
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> > > Shelli
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> > Distraction is pretty under-rated, i think.
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> The distraction thing is the reason I am trying to stay out of the hospital right now. But when the depression feels like it is hitting my core, it is so hard to hang in there and really hard to distract from that intensity of painAnother thing that helps me is having a plan. If this doesn't work, then on (date), I will try _____; if that doesn't work, then on (date), I will try ______ and so forth on and until I reach ECT. And then I think having an emergency plan--just a plan of action for what you do when things really get bad--I call so-and-so and check into _____. None of these things takes away the pain. What they do is provide me an autopilot system for making decisions at a time when any decision that I would make could not be trusted. You know how they say never think globally when you are in the throws of a deep depression. I'm reading a book right now that I am really enjoying in a crying sort of way "Noon Day Demon" by Andrew Solomon. This man has clearly been there and when I read some of his passages, they are so real that I weep. I think he tore off a bit of his soul and put it in the book.
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