Posted by BrendaF on May 31, 2001, at 10:54:11
In reply to Motivation ?!, posted by jimmygold70 on May 30, 2001, at 9:27:29
Hey Jimmy! I know exactly what you mean about being lazy. I have the same problem! I asked my psych one day if he thought I was just lazy and he said if that were the case, I probably wouldn't be bothered by the fact. Made sense to me. And I'm DEFINITELY bothered! I've been taking AD's for about 10yrs. Tried Prozac+Ritalin, Effexor+Ritalin, and am now on Wellbutrin SR 150mg x2. Between the Effexor and Wellbutrin, I had a sleep study done and found I had something similar to sleep apnea and now sleep with a CPAP. That has made a big difference in sleepiness.......but not in motivation--and I was sooo sure it would! :( I haven't gotten back on the Ritalin because I didn't like coming down from it. I've read lots of posts about the Adrafinil and ordered some from overseas about a week ago. I'm anxiously waiting for it to arrive (I hear it takes approx 3-4 weeks). I'm praying this is the answer to my problem. I hate feeling like life is just some big obligation till we're released thru death. I'm not suicidal now (although, I do think about what a relief death would be), but gosh, I'm 35yrs old and have a long way to go. I can't stand the thought of feeling like this from now on. It's like a 24hr job that you find boring and uninspiring. I want to WANT to get up in the morning.
Of course, people try to help with very good intentions. They say to make lists, start small, get out and do something for yourself......but, if you're like me, it's beyond just "making" yourself do something. Hell, if you have to "make" yourself do something enjoyable......you can forget about the stuff that's not fun. In addition to depression (atypical, dysthymia) I have a mild case of social phobia. Hoping the Adrafinil helps with that, too. You should do a search on it and read the past posts, they're pretty good.
Good luck!
poster:BrendaF
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