Posted by Wendy B on April 4, 2001, at 23:25:38
In reply to to Wendy B, posted by avoet on April 4, 2001, at 17:19:33
hi amanda,
i am feeling somewhat better, going through a breakup from hell, though. close to tears all the time, crying, tucking my daughter into bed with tears streaming down my face, right after getting off the phone with the ex, trying trying trying to understand what has happened. my daughter touches my cheek and kisses me several times...sorry you are thinking about the former fiance-chick. it's a killer, isn't it? how many years have you had these symptoms, or did they develop just now? is your boyfriend giving you anything to worry about, i.e. do you sincerely suspect him of any wrongdoing? how does he feel about your ruminations?
a couple of weeks ago i was obsessing about the girl my ex is seeing now, just thinking about it, and thinkng about it all day, for days. it was killing me. i remembered, however, that i had seen on the tv show ER, that the way one of the psychiatrist's methods of treating an obsessive was to have them wear a rubber band around their wrist. everytime they started to go into the obsessing, they'd 'snap!' the rubber band and it would make the person stop ruminating... so i did this for several days last month, just wore that rubber band, and it did relieve it for me somewhat. that little stinging pain...
Meds are:
Neurontin - 1200 mg bef. bed, 600 mg in the middle of the day.
Wellbutrin SR - 200 mg in the am, 100 mg in the pmdo you think that if if i'm trying to calm down, that i should be taking the wellbutrin? wouldn't that kind of wire me out?
you're a nanny, so it gives you time to brood - or do you mention it for some other reason? the kids you watch don't know if you're brooding or not, not like if you had an office job, it would be too hard to concentrate... i guess the motions of the household, taking care of the children, or cooking, let you think your own thoughts as you do them... that's what they do for me, anyway. thanks for writing to check on me,
wendy
> hey wendy,
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> thanks for writing me back! you seem like you might be feeling a little bit better - at least your note seemed more upbeat than the last. i however had a bad day. i am a nanny and the whole day i was ruminating over me fiance's ex-girlfriend. it is awful. you are right when you say that noone else understands but other suffering people. i know the turmoil that you are talking about. i get waves of guilt and remorse for things and then almost get sick to my stomach. remind me what meds you are on.
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> amanda
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